Hi Sir,

After moping around in the airport during a 3 hour lay over, thinking about the weekend at Your place, i decided to start working on this assessment.  Everything that i experienced and learned is running around in my mind and trying to write it all down is difficult.

Coming over to Your place was very stressful and scary for me, although i had gotten to know tommy pretty well from the Internet and had a couple of conversations with You, i was still very unsure about even meeting up with a 'Leather Man' and His family.

Not being a socially strong person, i created assumptions of what i was going to see and find, things that are  described in jerk off magazines or in rough fantasies. Being that fear usually [if not always] dictated what i do, i felt instead it was time to face my fear head on through the invitation to Your 50th birthday party.

When tommy picked me up from the airport, i wanted to turn tail 'knowing' this wasn't for me. Although he was doing his best to calm my mind of any concern i had. We went out to eat and tommy invited dave to join us. After a good meal and casual conversation i became more at ease.

i could try and assess each day but actually, all the days spent with You and Your family is melding together in the warmth and hospitality given. i came to Your place with a lot of misconceived interpretations about what Your home  was going to be like. i grew up in a family of 4, my dad left the actual raising of us to Mom - we were primarily to stay out of his way when he was home. In Your household, not only did i not find any of the perceived conceptions but i found a very caring and huggable Mentor, a household that welcomes conversation (of various types) at the dinner table and a Dad who's involved in household and the His boys within.

In my time there i had a chance to meet jerry and mike who were also very warm and enjoyable. jerry was very interested and supportive to this 'adventure' that i was taking and curious to how each day was going.

The days were not spent as thought of (or as described) in jerk off magazines, they were spent working around the house and preparing for the party. As well as You taking Your boy tommy up to the mountains to sight see because that was something he wanted and knowing how hard he had worked You wanted to do that for him.

When i came, i brought my own bag of issues and erroneous perceptions - and You showed me great compassion by not pushing me into anything that i didn't feel i could do - and we weren't even in a 'leather scene'. carlos helped me know that being quiet is okay, if that's what i prefer. Being overly social is not easy, that helped.

When we went to the DC Eagle, You made sure before hand that i didn't look out of place. Following behind You and Your family i felt very proud and privileged. Additionally You took the time to introduce me to many Sirs and boys who are friends of Yours. Even while at the bar, You kept an eye on Your boys, when a person yanked on dave's chain collar, You made sure dave told the person that his Master does not care for that at all.

Being able to stay with tommy helped me in sorting a lot of my concerns and thoughts. he helped with counseling and holding me when he knew i needed it - which was something rare for me.

Now it's hurting to write this letter, because i'm thinking even more about what i witnessed and experienced in Your home. Another thing left a huge impression on me, the day i was leaving, dave and carlos, both whom i didn't spend as much time with, hugged me when i left.

i'm ashamed - i was afraid of You and Your household before i arrived because of the misconceptions i had of a leather family and world - now i'm afraid that i won't find or be part of a family as Yours.

Thank You for letting me meet You and Your family Sir!

mike